my bad attempt at poetry
hey you
i’m afraid to lose you
but you were never mine in the first place
so what’s the harm in an
innocent kiss?
and now
i will gently break the
fragile bond between us that never existed
so what’s wrong with hoping
and wishing?
you are
gone just like a bubble
beautiful and rainbow-coloured but fleeting
and i don’t know where
to find you
pop pop
goes the bubble of love
that was hardly there in the first place
and my own fragile
heart
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well i haven’t written any poetry in a while (or come to think of it, written in a while). just in case you couldn’t tell (which i don’t think anyone can except for me) each of the four stranzas are supposed to be shaped like a kiss. argh anyway if i can pull through the physics paper tomorrow i can rest on hari raya and wake up after 12. i wanna go to the beachhhhhhh!
koizora
i’m jealous. i want to love like that too.
when worse comes to worst
language is a good Way of Knowing when somebody is royally screwed beyond belief. such as:
i am so gonna totally spontaneously combust when i see the economics paper tomorrow. i am so sure that upon opening the paper, i will be so shocked and at a loss for words that by eyeballs will just pop out of my skull and roll onto the foolscap in a bloody mess. serves me right for not studying for my worse hl subject. really. if tomorrow you hear an explosion in the hall that’ll be my head catching fire.
okay i’m sorry for all that randomness but i really really really really hope i pass econs. argh what happened to me. at the start of the year when i was in hosernling’s sl econs class i used to be so pro. but then when i went to .8 for the hl1 class i suddenly couldn’t grasp/understand all the concepts and then i started sleeping in class (i fall asleep when i don’t understand and can’t catch up with what the teacher is saying) and then the whole vicious cycle of self-denial and procrasination began.
what happened to me?! seriously i am detecting a pattern here; at the start of every year i’d have this resolve to do damn well and be super hardworking during the school year, but then this whole “i-will-be-a-good-girl-this-year” never goes beyond term 1. looking back, i suddenly wonder how i was able to enter nanyang. i can’t seem to understand how a fat and lazy pig who procrastinates so much, swears so much and gets into tons of trouble could enter such a good school. people think i cause trouble because i want to get attention or sth, but it’s not like that. i can’t control it!! you think i want to get scolded by teachers because i like it? (which reminds me, today i got shouted at in front of all the teachers in the staffroom, lovely) i think it all started at the end of sec 2, when i found out i didn’t get into ip. i knew it was my fault but it all just went downhill from there. that’s so dumb because no one reaches the peak of their life in sec 1, as i have. seriously i need to wake up. it’ll so lame if i retain/have to go to con camp cos then i wouldn’t be able to enjoy all the freedom of the end of years with a peace of mind (like the WOW trip with the class, possible japan trip, even the stupid SATs)
okay i think i should calm myself down and try to do my best for tomorrow. sian
the whole world is at the chinese b exam
and here i am, slacking and not studying periodicity like i should.
being alone in the house makes you feel really emo. like being totally alone and then the silence becomes deafening. so much so that it crushes your mood completely. this sucks. and it doesn’t help that my playlist is made up of sugary songs that are starting to make me cringe.
but 25 minutes by michael learns to rock is really heart-wrenching. this is what you get when you don’t tell the person you love that you want to spend your life with her, 25 minutes too late. sometimes procrastination really has its negative merits.
okay enough of this emo crap. i think i’ll go on a slight hiatus until the exams are over (and when i have something remotely more interesting to blog about)
boy i missed your kisses
oh man today was a bad day :(
1. well we got blasted again by sheep in chinese. not as heart-attack inducing as the previous scolding, but still quite scary all the same! not to mention the class was 2 hours after school!!
after lesson ended (3-ish) i wanted to go back to class to get something and study but it was locked. oh well.
2. i bought pork-ribs. but the supermarket person was damn ________. first of all i pressed the bell and no one came (it was pretty busy) so i pressed again and this woman came hurrying from the seafood section with a super pissed look on her face.
person: WHAT YOU WANT
me: um can i get 200 grams of black pepper pork ribs please
person: *looks at me as if i had just spoken in martian* HOW MANY YOU WANT
me: 200 grams
person: HOW MANY YOU WANT??
me: 200 grams?!
person: HOW MANY????!!! HUH HOW MANY
me: 200!!!!!!!! GRAMS!!!!!!!
okay it wasn’t so exaggerated but it did escalate into a shouting match. in the end she just decided that 200g = 5 ribs (which wasn’t even close) and shoved the bag into my face. and it was wet. from the fish juice on her hands from before she came to the bbq section. and i think she was slightly retarded. as in srsly, not that i have anything against mentally-unstable people; it’s just that maybe she’s not as suitable to work in the service sector. (no offence to anyone people)
4. some fat primary school kids pushed me into a bougainvillea bush and the thorns scratched my elbow. :( actually they didn’t push me per se, more like they were too BIG (as in horizontally, not vertically) and were occupying the whole lane that i had to maneuver myself around them, and then their EVEN FATTER bag whacked my stomach and i stumbled into the bushes. and they didn’t even realise they pushed a grown woman into almost disfiguration.
5. my brothers invited his friends over. enough said.
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. imuststopPMSingoversmallthings. :l
