all’s well with the world.
haha, anyway, i realised that i have this innane mechanism to come up with quirky titles for my posts, that on hindsight, have no real meaning. or do they? well i do think with my heart a lot; i think it’s called instinct. that’s why i’m so prone to rash decisions or saying things without thinking. but as to feeling with your heart… how does that work out? :/
well, it’s the last day of 2008. i’ve been doing mindless things for the past few days; got my nails painted, got freaked out by the hairdresser (he looked like a vampire, but not the edward cullen kind of way, sadly), got the cable guy to fix the net… the first year of co-ed high school life has gone us by, just like that. was it close to what i thought it’d be? i guess, for the most part… yes. there’ve been so many ups and downs, that i can’t keep track anymore. and and before i forget.
(the customary) new year’s resolution:
1. stop getting distracted by mindless internet applications so much (i.e. YOUTUBE!)
2. stop being anti-social when i’m in a bad mood
3. think before i speak
4. complete work on time
5. treat my family better (i know what they say most of the time is for my own good, just that i can’t take it well)
6. revise for tests/exams
7. exercise more (but we all know that’s not gonna happen… i’m gonna fail 2.4 again :( )
8. listen to friends’ problems instead of always thinking about mine
9. cut down on compulsive spending (i.e. less shopping more saving)
10. be happier! and to accomplish that i need _______.
p.s. happy new year’s day in advance!
When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the tube
We can talk things over little time
But promise me you wont stand by the light
When I get to Warwick Avenue
Please drop the past and be true
Don’t say we’re okay
Just because I’m here
You hurt me bad but I wont shed a tear
I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
Outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.
When I get to Warwick Avenue
We’ll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you answers, now here’s the door
When I get to Warwick Avenue
I’ll tell baby that we’re through
Cause I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
An outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.
All the days spent together
I wish for better,
And I didn’t want the train to come
Now it’s departed, I’m broken hearted
Seems like we never started
All those days spent together
When I wished for better
And I didn’t want the train to come.
No, no.
You think you’re loving
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me
You don’t love me
I want to be free
Baby you’ve hurt me
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a really pretty song by duffy. i thought it sounded christmassy when i first heard it. the music video is really poignant i think, all that raw emotion. sometimes being a singer-songwriter is really hard, especially since you’re singing about your heartbreak over and over again, with no hope for reprieve, so you’d be constantly reminded of something you’d rather forget.
i think this is probably by favourite song now, just above Worrisome Heart by Melody Gardot, haha.
every time i’m stuck in a bad or potentially nasty situation, i’d wish really hard for a super power. like when you’ve done something wrong and the teacher’s scolding you in front of the whole class; you’d be so embarassed you’d wish you could turn invisible at will. or like when you made a huge mistake ; you’d wish you could turn back time to correct your mistake. when i was younger, everytime i got into sticky situation, i’d think of the corresponding power that would solve my problem. yeah i know, it’s the loser’s way out, but it was all in the mind y’know? like if i wished hard enough, i could actually make it happen?
it’s not because i wish i were some sort of superhero, just maybe some average girl with a cool power no one knew about. if i looked at things from a kid’s perspective, right now, right when i’m typing this, i would wish for the power to read people’s minds. but that’s like cheating, because if you could read someone’s mind, you’d find out their secrets and that’s not very nice. but what’s nice though, is if you can take just one look at a person’s eyes and then poof, all your fears would be allayed and you can finally stop guessing. or it can be the other way round too, then i think i’d probably be quite sad. i suppose somethings in life you just can’t find out in advance.
merry christmas people. hope y’all got what you wanted this time round. ;)
Filed under: daily, memories, photo-entry | Tags: food, friends, movie, shopping
half the week is gone! and it’s already 5 minutes into wednesday. that means tomorrow’s christmas. gosh, how time flies.
monday:
yukiyaki grilled meat and icecream restaurant at raffles city! (extremely lousy photographs ahead, i’m sorry.)
dined with abraham, kevin, cheryl and pam. so much for our well-planned, well-conferenced lunch; two people still couldn’t turn up. anyway got chastised when i got there for wearing too little (i wore a tank top), but that was before pamelia chia showed up in a cleavage-baring top. the food was really yummy, and all was well except for the hot oil splattering everywhere while we were grilling. the cold-grill-your-own-icecream was also a first, and so was eating a yam-durian flavoured icecream (really gross, don’t try it if you hate durians like me). astro left, so us three girls plus the long-suffering ham went shopping at far east plaza. we tried to turn him into a poseur in topman, haha. anyway i guess shopping is really hell for guys. ming actually told me a story today, about a large group of around 10 of her guy friends who went into a store one day, and each of them bought 10 shirts, and that was their wardrobe for the whole year (!!!!!!!!) cos they hate shopping. like omg? how do you not shop for a whole year. my bro and dad will bolt whenever my mom and i exhibit KISS syndrome, which stand for Kay, I’m Shopping Soon, which is characterised by decreasing attention spans and flitting eyes to window displays. a good judge of male character is how willing the guy in question is to endure a shopping trip, because he needs to have oodles of patience (haha, full marks abraham) i bought a really cheap pair of heels but i don’t know where to wear them to. sigh, when i went home i got an earful from my grandma, who thinks i have enough shoes to open a shoe shop.
tuesday:
only one photo, cos my hp’s cam sucks and it ran out of battery. ming and kk informed me today that my eyes are non-existent when i smile in photos. boohoo.
we watched Yes Man today at cine. it’s the one with jim carrey and zooey deschanel in it. it was quite funny and sweet, it was almost like a chick flick! later we ate and walked all the way from wisma to shaw house to the heeren. my feet were really killing me and i joked that kingkong and mingyi should carry me material girl-style on the streets to our destination. ming agreed a tad too quickly so i decided it was best not to for my safety, lol. but we saw some interesting musical performances while walking around, and the lights were so pretty. but hey, the highlight of the day was gossiping with kk and ming. they haven’t changed a bit! still as chatty and giggly as they were since forever. and ming kept asking kk and i to entertain her with scandalous stories since she insists rj is a mugger school with nothing interesting happening.
well, i’m pretty much expecting ming to marry her bf, since they’re so adamant about this. and kk had an interesting (almost) relationship with an australian-chinese guy. and me, nothing interesting. still, not complaining! at least i get to see them. also i am shocked. girls, don’t go clubbing. i heard this not-so-nice story from ming about it.
oh and today i realised how small singapore actually is!!! i met hyung and joash at one shop in wisma, and the next thing i knew i met bl and her friend in the next shop we went to! kk and ming both saw a friend or two as well. freaky. i swear orchard is getting too small for our 4 mil population. the streets were really crowded tonight; i couldn’t even walk without accidentally stepping into someone’s picture/bumping into people.
also, my mom thinks i need to seek psychiatric treatment because she thinks i am a complusive buyer. i mean, it’s normal if you buy stuff when you go out right?!?! it’s not as if i buys dresses and shirts and shoes every single day. and the way she decides to buy stuff is wayyy more impulsive, it’s like deciding what tv show she wants to watch – it’s as easy as a flick of her wrist (or in this situation, the credit card instead of the remote).
yay class chalet on fridayyyy. can’t wait to see the class. super long post haha. i expect people’ll be skipping over all of the paragraphs. merry xmas eve y’all!
