Filed under: daily, memories, random | Tags: friends, lame, love, movie, random, tired
i’ve been thinking though a lot these couple of days
the memories of us
of you
i just can’t help but remember all these times that we’ve shared
it seems like it was only yesterday that i’ve met you
but the things that happened and did not happen between us
passed by in a blur
tears, smiles, and even blood
these painful things
and i don’t know why they keep running through my mind
all the times you’ve kept me up at night
just you and me face to face without a word, the silence complete, staring
the times i’ve screamed and felt that i was at my limit
and almost cried with exhaustion
because i wanted so much for us to work out
but you never really gave in anything i wanted to do
sometimes i lay in bed unable to get up to face you in school
everywhere i turned, you seemed to be there, every single day
i wanted to hide, i wanted us to end,
yet i grew sick at the thought of the future without you, beyond you
and then, it ended, just like that
no words, nothing
after that long drawn out, mentally tiring fight between you and i
and what can i say? i feel numb
i don’t really have anything left to feel
because i’m on my own without you now
like a fish out of water
but for the first time i feel so free
and i only have two words:
goodbye ib
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GOTCHA! ;) hee hee. i couldn’t resist!! soz guys :D another one of my lame customary joke posts.
although these 2 years sometimes really felt like a bad romance (yes gaga hi) and there were times that i really felt that i wasn’t up to it and wanted to give up, but in the end i pulled through! we all did… i hope.
we’d have to wait till jan 6 to find out (but in the mean time, as ellen would say PAR-TA-AYY)
Filed under: daily, memories, rambling | Tags: brother, exams, friends, funny, television
this random but trying to mug is as difficult as deciding if simon baker is better than hugh laurie or vice versa. haha. it’s impossible to tell who’s better. i watched half an episode of the mentalist last night. it’s quite a nice show! shall add it to my list of shows to spam after ib
i’ve got nothing funny/interesting to post so here are some random parts of my waning days as an ib student:
while yuechin, ruthi, pam and i were walking out of school today after mathh:
me: ok i test you. who is the current prime minister of UK
pam: uhhh… barack obama
(which caused chin ruthi and i to go into a fit a laughter, and i accidentally spilt ribena on chin’s bag cause in the ensuing chaos we knocked into each other)
pam: wait wait let me guess again… uh BILL CLINTON. *silence* ok… john f kennedy??
me: NO!! it’s gordon brown
pam: ohh but i know marilyn monroe sang a happy birthday song to kennedy
/end (i think maybe i should get her an atlas and a subscription to the economist for her birthday, HAHA. i kid i kid.)
i was lying on the sofa watching tv after dinner
me: bj i feel so fat :( i’m oozing fats all over the sofa
bj: yeah you know what would happen if you go swimming in the sea?
me: don’t tell me… i don’t wanna hear -_-
bj: you’re cause an oil spill and kill all the marine wildlife, that’s what would happen :)
/end
lastly:
ferd: bullshit is the fertilizer for the brilliant
haha and with that inspiring quote from ferd, i shall be brilliant no mo’ and go back to studying ecornzzxx
p.s. can’t wait for ib to be over… prom! so excite. (need to lose weight if not i’ll really start causing oil spills lol) but then it’ll be 5 days of intensive, exhausting shopping right after the last paper ie math paper3. BUT I DON’T MIND. mind-numbingly exhaustive shopping>mind-numbingly exhaustive examinations anyday, all day, 24/7. and not to mention lnat straight after that in early december!! and i should probably get a job after that too! like as a secretary or something. i mean i have all the way till august/sept 2010 before uni starts
p.p.s. mom’s coming home from shanghai today!! :):) yay got crabs to eat :D
p.p.p.s. oh well house and patrick jane will have to wait. but i’ll get back to you two soon, i promise. haha
p.p.p.p.s. OH RIGHT there’s a meteor shower today!! that was like the whole purpose of my post before i got distracted with the whole hugh laurie/simon baker thing. it’s at 1-3am at night/early morning. dunno if i can see it though! but i really wanna make a wish. other than getting above 41 point of course! cos like, it’s a meteor shower so you can make more than one? but the other wish is secret, i donch tell you what it is :) heehee
yesterday i went to guang’s birthday party! special mention to the cheesecake cos everyone thought it was store bought, but it was all really due to pamelia ramsay’s expert direction (plus the extra help of the jean-phillipes aka ben chong, kwong and i). and had much fun singing at the karaoke with everyone. and i think i kinda lost my voice after yesterday though. and after that we had fun bowling/watching people bowl. then and spent time at the adjoining arcade. hmm oh yeah watching the guys play the street fighter game was really an eye opener, never knew how those things worked haha.
plus i didn’t do much all week, except for math and english. finally emailed asking for a referral letter and completed the personal statement thought, even though i had trouble with latter. cos when you watch too much antm, suddenly the way you promote yourself sounds awfully like the way the models on the show interview. not good, since it makes you sound less like the credible future undergrad that you’re supposed to be and more like…… ris low.
hmm plan for tomorrow’s that i’m gonna finish summarizing siddhartha, like key quotes and rundown and stuff. hope i can finish. plus i really need to plan the studying schedule; it’s scary to think the actual exams are coming so soon guys. i’m so not prepared. oh well, the inevitable will come whether we want it or not…
anw toodles guys time to sleep.
boom boom boomz!
bao
p.s. now that i’ve finished watching true blood s2 and band of brothers on max i have nothing to look forward to on weekends. :( i’m contemplating whether to start watching house haha. should i?
Filed under: daily, memories, videos | Tags: cousin, exams, food, friends, music, random, tired, work
hmm just finished math tuition. BL and i were reliving our memories by listening to certain songs. it’s interesting how memories can be evoked by just one scent, one picture, one video, or in this case, one song. like the song above! haha oh man it was funny how it was my fave song but i had no idea who it was by or where it was from. that and naive too. because they both played on the radio at that time… which was almost 3 years ago? we were like “wow” for a while, like stunned, thinking about the days associated with those songs. ahh miss the sec 2 and 3 days. i was such a carefree and happy girl then. haha. i would take long bus rides home from nanyang everyday on 852, and then there was this once when this song came on, and i was passing the stretch of yiochukang road right before katib mrt; the road was framed with these trees whose canopies spread over on both sides to form a sort-of tunnel over the road, and i remember watching the dappled sunlight, which formed lace-like patterns on the roads, as the bus whizzed past, and with the strains of guitar from the earphones and the nice cozy temperature inside the bus, i thought to myself: all is right and well in the world. :) lol, but that was so long ago. i haven’t felt like that in so long. :/
oh right. where was i before i went down memory lane… i wanted to send the songs to BL’s phone, but then i realised she didn’t bring it. and she told me there’s something wrong with her phone, yet again, so now she’s stuck with one circa 2001, with no camera and bluetooth, only infrared. HAHA don’t worry you’ll get an awesome new phone soon too!
and during lunch band of brothers was on max, so i was trying to explain the concept of paratroopers and radars to my gran. which wasn’t so difficult, except for the fact i was trying to explain in dialect. i was trying to tell her how the us invented this jet that can evade radars, but in the end i gave up. haha. didn’t know the word for radar in shanghainese. then mom joined us and gave us the whole rundown of what happened at normandy beach. ’twas a blast from the past guys. i’m glad we aren’t embroiled in some war now. i rather 10 times of ib torture than singapore getting involved in a war haha. that’s how grateful i am.
hmm yesterday i met kk and omy to study at kap. well the plan was to study at the new starbucks near coro but it was filled with hwach people so, to no avail. study study all the way (which reminds me, ong ming yi is crazy. she mugged until she got a giant blister on her pinkie from too much friction because she wrote too much), and then vernon joined us and then we had dinner at this peranakan place. hmm the food was nice, but i made the mistake of saying that it looked unappetizing in front of the owner. whooooops. got death glares from kk and my. haha oh man. hm ming look slightly down though… cheer up babe it’ll tide over! don’t think so much and just do it, haha
oh yeah i saw A LOT of ac people. well, singapore is too small and there are only a few places the people from elite schools can go to study – i.e. KAP. what else. hmm oh kk insulted my thighs. she said they were fat and wobbling all over the place, WHAT THE. i was sad for a while. :( oh yeah what else… oh right, i went home and i got an upset stomach. guess peranakan food ain’t for me, haha.
Filed under: memories, rambling, random, videos | Tags: blast from the past, dad, mom, movie, random, reflective, television, video
ahh… what a blast to the past. i love disney movies :D well i’m not afraid to say it, even though some might deem it childish, but i think when you’re all grown up and you revisit these childhood classics, they take on a whole new meaning. i know this is stupid, but when i was a kid i totally had a crush on robin hood… who technically was an anthropomorphic fox. and i hated maid marian because she was his gf. haha! oh man typing all of this really makes me wonder what was going on in my head when i was young. but now rewatching the movie it seems to me to be a great good-truimphs-over-evil, true-love-exists-no-matter-what type of love story. which also happens to be insanely saccharine sweet… which is exactly the way i like it!
well, disney just doesn’t make movies like that anymore y’know? like movies with that tinge of old hollywood glamour of the 40s (or is is 50s? 60s?); the slightly muffled, gramaphone-like sound quality of the film, the classic fairytale romance, the female protagonist who can attract animals with song (for some funny reason). i can’t really describe it. but the closest way i can put it is the way disney movies used to have the ability to make children believe in magic – talking animals, flying carpets, exotic places, fairy godmothers etc etc, the list persists. now it’s, hmm, miley cirus and her hoe down throw down. -_-
the animated movies that i loved the most as a child were the land before time, robin hood, hercules and the fox and the hound. i remember my dad used to buy me these cd-rom games which featured the movie characters from the disney films, like this hunchback of notre dame game i remember, it was like break the bricks with the ball thing, and i used to challenge my mom to see who was better LOL. well somehow there seemed to be a never-ending supply of games (mostly educational… like that sat prep game what was modeled after doom i played when i was 6. wow, i wonder which developer thought it was a good idea to make a game for children which had like a dark maze full of skeletons jumping at you at random. it still scares me btw), maybe perhaps my dad worked in a video game developing company last time (i think).
so anyway my favourite animated movie was land before time: i watched it when i was 4 or 5 and it had a profound impact on me. it was about how this group of orphaned dinosaurs went on a journey to find their parents, and i remember pretending the spinach in my porridge was the leaf-transmitter thingy that the dinosaur used to see their parents. i remember being grateful that i wasn’t an orphan. haha. ahhh memories. it’s funny how some things from your childhood remain with you all these while, and other things you can’t remember at all. hmm.
oh well this wass such a self-indulgent post. like a spectroscopic flight of fancy. and the subject matter doesn’t really suit my image at all – maybe i should stick with listening to death metal. haha! :P
