Filed under: daily, memories, random | Tags: friends, lame, love, movie, random, tired
i’ve been thinking though a lot these couple of days
the memories of us
of you
i just can’t help but remember all these times that we’ve shared
it seems like it was only yesterday that i’ve met you
but the things that happened and did not happen between us
passed by in a blur
tears, smiles, and even blood
these painful things
and i don’t know why they keep running through my mind
all the times you’ve kept me up at night
just you and me face to face without a word, the silence complete, staring
the times i’ve screamed and felt that i was at my limit
and almost cried with exhaustion
because i wanted so much for us to work out
but you never really gave in anything i wanted to do
sometimes i lay in bed unable to get up to face you in school
everywhere i turned, you seemed to be there, every single day
i wanted to hide, i wanted us to end,
yet i grew sick at the thought of the future without you, beyond you
and then, it ended, just like that
no words, nothing
after that long drawn out, mentally tiring fight between you and i
and what can i say? i feel numb
i don’t really have anything left to feel
because i’m on my own without you now
like a fish out of water
but for the first time i feel so free
and i only have two words:
goodbye ib
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GOTCHA! ;) hee hee. i couldn’t resist!! soz guys :D another one of my lame customary joke posts.
although these 2 years sometimes really felt like a bad romance (yes gaga hi) and there were times that i really felt that i wasn’t up to it and wanted to give up, but in the end i pulled through! we all did… i hope.
we’d have to wait till jan 6 to find out (but in the mean time, as ellen would say PAR-TA-AYY)
HIATUS
(but you knew that already, right)
and the mentalist/criminal minds/csi is on tonight but i’m too sleepy to watch. bleh
Filed under: daily, random, reflective | Tags: movie, random, reflective, tired
it’s 1.34 am
i’m alone by myself in the living room
and all i can hear is the the bubbling of the fish tank
the whirr of air-conditioning from under the neighbours’ windows
the cpu buzzing away
the laguid tick-tock of the clock
people returning from where ever they were, car doors slamming downstairs
and the occassional person in his car speeding along the road outside
it’s times like this, all these combination of sounds that make me think the city is sleeping, like a giant in slumber. it’s funny how in other places, like while vacationing in hk or staying at my aunt’s place in shanghai, the traffic never seems to stop in the middle of the night, and people are honking away randomly like nobody’s business. it’s barely 2 and everybody’s all sleeping! even the neighbour who screams at her children late at night sleeps at 11, haha.
anyway and it’s the first time in a while i’m not in bed by 1. heh. that’s cos was trying to finish an essay! my shoulders feel cramped and sore from being hunched over fore the past 2 hours from doing them on the comp. :( i needs a massage guys, i feel like the hunchback of notre dam with a right big lump on my shoulders now.
hmm i saw the paranormal activity trailer on youtube! well, technically speaking i saw it but didn’t watch it because i didn’t dare to, LOL. if not i wouldn’t be sitting here calmly typing this – i’d probably be hiding under my covers in bed and listening to the radio to block out the sounds of the room creaking and all that jazz, which seem more frightening when you’re in that heightened state of paranoia for some reason. heh. gosh i hate the after effects of getting spooked out. that’s why i stick to watching b-grade, retrotastic b-grade horror films: because their “horror” is a bunch of zombies that look like they came from the set of Thriller, moaning ‘brains!’ and staggering around town, and ain’t no scary dead girl coming out of a tv screen or a stupid well, haha. and above all b-grade horror films are super funny, especially when the protagonists are all scared shitless and running away from zombies and you’re laughing your ass off at the one dressed like a character from Dynasty circa 1980, complete with ugly pearl necklace, shoulder pads and shoes to match. (not that i watch Dynasty though, soz for the stereotype) with that said i caught a bit of return of the dead on max before i was chased back to my room and i laughed more than i was scared (which was none). wish i could’ve finished watching it though, i wonder what happened to all those zombies…
right better go sleep now, toodles!
need to get my sexy back guys, haha.
rahrah ahahah, muhmuh muhmuhmuh, rahrah oohlala
want my forty-five.
bye guys, it’s time the fat cats get a heart attack!
