and on a random note, today on the mrt on my way to school i saw a woman who was crying. i don’t know who she is but i hope she’s ok now.
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love this song so much. i wanna watch 500 days of summer :)
and i was thinking how the universe is a metaphor for life. see, everyone’s a planet in this vast, inter-connected expanse of darkness. everyone’s held at an arm’s length of light years from each other, and the universe is at equilibrium, all the planets orbiting precariously within the status quo of gravity.
there’s you, you’re earth, you’re surrounded by the 7 other planets in the solar system.
there’s jupiter, the friend who you gravitate toward, the largest planet in the solar system.
there’s saturn, the friend you’d like to be closer to but can’t cuz he/she’s surrounded by a gazillion moons.
there’s neptune, the friend who’s always in a state of emotional flux, whose moods perpetually swing from stormy to acrid to lukewarm, just like the weather.
there’s venus and mars, the pair of friends who always seem to be at loggerheads but whom you know will get together eventually.
there’s mercury, the hot-headed friend who’s the closest to the fire, and who sticks up for you when you need it the most.
and then there’s the sun; that’s the most important person in your life. it keeps you warm, it keeps you alive. too close and it gets unbearably hot, because he’s just too bright to stare at for too long.
well. we hope for the best for asteroid belts to keep away, for the sun to stay sane and to keep the solar flares in, for the supernovas and black holes to remain at light-years’ distance away. so that the balance isn’t disrupted. sometimes i wish i were a star right up there in some far-flung and lonely galaxy, like one of those tiny stars that float around doing nothing but speeding on it’s orbit the whole day. but that’s kinda sad you know? being a star. cuz stars are so pretty yet they’re slowly dying from inside, that’s why they shine.
haha this post is so monumentally geeky and cheesy. whateverrr! btw guys remember to check out the song, you’re bound to fall in love with it. (too bad the band’s broken up; the lead singer has a real nice british accent)
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the weekend’s been really productive. hopefully i’ll be able to retain all that info though! seems to be a stretch but hopefully it happens. and my goal for the prelims is to get at least a 6 in all HLs and 7 for chem and 6 for physics. i got 5 for chinese a2 but since we’ve gotten the score for our written papers for ib back already and have already submitted the ias, i hope i get a 7!
suddenly i have this real urge to go study in the uk, just seems like such a great place to be. even though i know it’s selfish because it’s sooo expensive and i should just remain in singapore and go to nus (because well, given the job climate now if i do get into law in the uk i’ll probably stay there after i graduate). well but my long term goal is to buy my parents a house by the seaside (lol mom i know you’re reading this) and then pay for my bro’s uni tuition fees so i guess anywhere’s fine as long as i get a job. cus you know, confucius ranks high on my list of life’s philosophies (after maybe say… uhhh)
haha. i know right? and if i have enough money left i’ll save up for my wedding. HAHA!
but since i’m so bad at saving i’ll prolly be a perpetually poor student even after i graduate. boohoo.
and i’m spamming a lot of indie music in my itunes recently. idk the stuff they sing about’s catchy and laid-back at the same time. and it’s cute how a lot of indie bands name themselves with the article “the” at the start of their names:the red jumpsuit apparatus (hmm is that an indie band?), the crib, the pigeon detectives, the ramones, the scientists… aaaaand this band called the kooks whose music i really like recently!
this song’s pretty good, and i used to be really crazy over their song ‘naive’, except then i didn’t really know which band played it. except half the time i can’t understand the lyrics, hm. maybe sometimes things are made to be appreciated, not to be understood.
p.s. this is random, but i’m suddenly craving that sweet, white and thick chinese hot dessert. rahhh
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school today was pretty slack, no hl1 nor hl2 so i was trying to read up shakespeare in the library (but they don’t really have any 12th night/king lear specific books other than the actual plays though). met some people who were prepping for ioc, and who also had mad ninja “skillz” in terms of spotting extracts. haha. then pam came along with yuechin and ruthi after a while. they were gushing over this haston blumenthal guy who makes uber exotic ice cream flavours like olive oil, bacon and ham… etc. well, it’s pretty interesting but i don’t think i eat any anytime soon. i’ll stick to the 70% dark chocolate magnum popsicles thank you. haha!
then i went for this talk given by ex-acsi student who went to study in uk! it was pretty interesting. i liked how the guy from imperial college made his life sound so easy (“i don’t go for any lectures and i only do one tutorial a week”) but turned out to be the top in the faculty or something. oxford seemed really nice though, from the way the 2 girls introduced it, although the tuition+living expenses will prbably cost a reaaaaaaaal pretty penny. and i mean like cost an arm and leg pretty penny. not to mention they have to cycle everywhere on campus (yikes). well at least i’ll be able to learn how to cycle (champion go oxord to learn how to cycle around the colleges). PLUS it seems suitable for quirky (read: weird) people like me haha. oh wellos, if by any chance i find a great pot of gold at the end of a rainbow or strike lottery i’ll go there.
oh oh i forgot to mention the coolio interview process the applicants have to o through for oxbridge. instead of asking you to wax lyrical about your non-existent leadership and whatever skills, and your sudden love for the university in question (coughAMERICA), they put you through a test to see how motivated you are to learn. like for example the law interview they give you this portfolio/briefcase full of legal documents and you have to read it, and then you enter the room with the professors and they start to ask you to explain your views on the various verdicts and decisions given by the judges and jury respectively, a la actual tutorial style. i’ll most prolly fail the test though! i can imagine myself uttering some incoherent rubbish due to butterflies in the stomach, haha. plus i won’t be able to explain my viewpoint well, since my persuasion skills are like, zilch. ugh so fail. time for a boston legal marathon to up my relevance factor haha (except now in boston legal they focus more on office politics than scenes involving actual litigation, so naaaah)
and i started out this post to write about something else, but i guess it just diffused out of me as i was typing it. because suddenly i’m seeing the big picture of things (with all this uni talk), and what i wanted to say at first became stupid in comparison. but i’ll admit it sent a chill down my spine when the thought occured to me then. i felt so… lost. and disappointed. and slightly angry. but i’m harping on things up there in the air again, so… i guess i’ll just leave it.
p.s. i need to learn how to maintain a poker face, cuz that’s what i need
i’m trying not to feel so bloody irritated. fine, stuff happens, i can accept that.
the me three years ago would’ve gone into a bad case of verbal diarrhea. last year i might’ve written a lengthy and irritatingly ambiguous rant. but currently all i feel is disappointment. and annoyance. mostly annoyance.
at least there’s a silver lining to all of this: it’s the man-up-there’s sign to me that i should stop being so slack and unfocused.
oh well. no biggie. noooooooo biggie.
anyway this kinda cheers me up anyhow. it’s funny and it’s such a fml worthy-moment:
fuggersnaps. >:(
