Filed under: daily, memories, rambling, videos | Tags: friends, random, john mayer, video, boys, love, lyrics, reflective, fangirl, gaga
yesterday we celebrated with a yummy (but slightly expensive) buffet at straits cafe @ rendezvous hotel! had fun chitchatting and eating with tony, shoban, guang, ham, edsee, pam! gosh it was hilarious. first of all tony and his alfalfa, basically it’s this moss like thing that tasted like grass. pam was throwing him eye-rolls and grimaces when he was eating it like some bovine organism. and the disgusting durian creme and puff. oh god if i ever have the pleasure of eating (forced, tricked, accidentally or otherwise) anything with durian in it i swear i will use one whole bottle of listerine in one sitting. then we watched a movie called gomorrah at cathay picturehouse (it was between that and christmas carol 3D, but since pam’s 18 we chose the former m18 movie LOL). it apparently won the top prize at the cannes film festival (plus certified 91% fresh via pam’s rottentomatoes), but it turned out… as i quote the birthday girl “this movie was such a milestone for me” well. i still prefer the heavily-stylized 40s american mafia movie a la the godfather. gomorrah was too hyper-real imo. :/ anyway have fun in malacca girl!
edit:
birthday girl!
fewd!
edsee laughing at at tony eating his alfalfa
group shot! slightly blurred. (and my face looks like the full moon lol)
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anyway i’ve finally gotten down to listening to the fame monster. gaga is a genius. perhaps i should consider turning from a free-thinker to joining a pagan occult that worships her, LOL. i’m joking, i’m joking, don’t stone me. anyway alejandro is my favourite on the album!! best thing is, it samples czardas (the very hungarian gypsy tune we learned for guitar) at the start. and i love the intro of dance in the dark too!!
hmm i got john mayer’s new album battle studies. spent the whole morning in bed listening to it. i gotta say it’s my favourite album by him yet. the whole thing feels so raw, unpretentious, and intimate. especially love friends, lovers or nothing and the title track, heartbreak warfare. and i shall leave you with the former! the lyrics are really meaningful imo (i’m sure many of us will have felt like this at some point in time or another). the perfect album for single, lonely souls out there, heh:
anything other than yes is no,
anything other than stay is go,
anything less than i love you is lying
Filed under: daily, memories, random | Tags: friends, lame, love, movie, random, tired
i’ve been thinking though a lot these couple of days
the memories of us
of you
i just can’t help but remember all these times that we’ve shared
it seems like it was only yesterday that i’ve met you
but the things that happened and did not happen between us
passed by in a blur
tears, smiles, and even blood
these painful things
and i don’t know why they keep running through my mind
all the times you’ve kept me up at night
just you and me face to face without a word, the silence complete, staring
the times i’ve screamed and felt that i was at my limit
and almost cried with exhaustion
because i wanted so much for us to work out
but you never really gave in anything i wanted to do
sometimes i lay in bed unable to get up to face you in school
everywhere i turned, you seemed to be there, every single day
i wanted to hide, i wanted us to end,
yet i grew sick at the thought of the future without you, beyond you
and then, it ended, just like that
no words, nothing
after that long drawn out, mentally tiring fight between you and i
and what can i say? i feel numb
i don’t really have anything left to feel
because i’m on my own without you now
like a fish out of water
but for the first time i feel so free
and i only have two words:
goodbye ib
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GOTCHA! ;) hee hee. i couldn’t resist!! soz guys :D another one of my lame customary joke posts.
although these 2 years sometimes really felt like a bad romance (yes gaga hi) and there were times that i really felt that i wasn’t up to it and wanted to give up, but in the end i pulled through! we all did… i hope.
we’d have to wait till jan 6 to find out (but in the mean time, as ellen would say PAR-TA-AYY)
edit: i changed the video cos this one’s nice. Postsecret is really inspiring/beautiful and extremely sad at the same time.
one last time. i promise, no more emo lovey-dovey shit after this.
(and i could only say, a big fat a wish)
today on the bus after guitar i told pam about the thing that has been bothering me this whole while. it’s nice to get it off my chest for a bit. i guess listening to other people’s problems do take your attention off your own.
it’s funny how a tiny thing can make you remember something you’d rather forget. or wish for someone who has left. i wonder if i actually listened to my heart instead of my brain more, would things have changed? if cowardliness is just an excuse for not taking risks, then i’d better off be an unfeeling, unthinking entity. sighhh where’s courage when you need(ed) it. sometimes i think keeping everything inside will be better than letting it all out and getting into awkward situations, but then what’s the point in hoping for something to happen in the past when it has already happened.
you’re gone, but i still miss you
:(
sigh anyway today i was totally unmotivated. i only had 2 things on my do do list and i only completed half of the first thing i needed to do. oh well. my parents are now constantly reminding me that i have sats next next month and should get my butt off the procrastination seat and start mugging for them. that’s kinda funny, seeing that they don’t want me to go to america anyway. my mom and i were watching 30 rock yesterday night (or rather, very early today morning) and she said something that was really touching, “new york looks so cold and dangerous… i think you better stay here to study because i’ll get worried”. awwww.
it might be the fact that they have suddenly started to tell me about my baby years that has alerted me to their not wanting to let go. i mean, other teenagers my age find it hard to communicate with their parents because they don’t care/don’t see each other a lot/care but don’t make an effort. but i’m pretty close with my mom (not so much my dad, but still close) so that’s not really a problem. also, about my kid brother. sometimes i can tell he gets down because he get ignored, but that’s only because i’m causing too much trouble/too apathetic so all the adults focus their attention on scolding me. i can tell he’s gonna grow up to be a nice guy. and last but not least my grandma. sometimes she’s a total bitch but since she’s older and has taken care of me and my bro since we were itty bitty babies, we have to forgive her. she PMS soooo much and expects people to do things the moment the order has left her mouth. also she badmouths people to other people and acts all nice in front of the people she’s pissed at. last but not least, i hate the way she wakes me up in the morning by spanking me with a freaking wire hanger – it bloody HURTS. but she cooks yummy food everyday for us (because my mom can’t cook…) and we share common interests (reading newspapers, watching drama serials) and we’re all related by blood, so there’s nothing anyone in my family can do that will make him or her unforgivable, cos that’s the power of love. :)
p.s. not to mention my paternal grandmother is the terrifying one.
